we're now far apart

just want to share my feeling right now...maybe i'm to sensitive or anything....just now, i feel a quite bit hurt actually...not totally hurt...arggghh..i don't know what to describe about it....erm,wae? it is only my feeling? maybe,...just now i feel like we are not like before...we become more far apart...even i feel like we're quite bit awkward with each other....it seem between of us....there were more secrets or more thing that we don't want to share with...not like before that we share all thing together...from problems to happy things...aigoooo

maybe because we're not keep touch each other often like before i think...just want to give that person time as that person were quite busy with the schedule....ermmmm....and i already try to get closed back,,,,but i think it only me...ermmm...let it be...maybe for a time being...it is da best...hope so

my ideal type

ngeee...nie bila dah tak ada idea....mulalah keluar idea2 yang pelik2....okay....sebenarnya terlintas nak tulis idea this tyme sebab ternampak gambar2 my favourite oppa nie pakai spec...so, terlintas r nak cakap pasal my ideal type...aku rasa mesti...not mesti r...pasti everyone have their own ideal type for their special soulmate gitu....hahaha...mesti masing2 ada taste nak pasangan macam mana like kaya ke, handsome ke, baik ke, zuhud ke or else r....so do i...but actually...aku tak adalah taste menggunung tinggi or tak adalah demand banyak...eh senang ceritalah...aku tak ada specific ideal type pun...just......

aku suka orang pakai spec a.k.a kaca mata nie....hahaha...suka tengoklah....tengok macam smart je r kan....sebelum itu ditekankan...SUKA TENGOK je erk...tak lebih pun....sebab tu kawan2 aku pun dah tak pelik kalau tiba2 aku cakap "eh2, pakai speclah,"...dorang tahu sangat lah tu....hahahaha....tak adalah kan...ntah tapi aku tengok smart r...aku bukan suka budak nerd2 ke apa...lagipun tak semestinya pakai spec to kira nerd kan??aku jumpa ramai je member aku pakai spec tapi peragai...astagafirullah al azim....iskk2....sadis aku nak rungkaikan dalam perkataan...hahahaha....kawan2 aku pun majoritinya dah tahu sangat taste aku...siap boleh main2 lagi...tapi tak take seriuslah...juz like to watch...bukannya suka betul2 bawa ke hati...kot bahaya gitu...pantang jumpa orang pakai spec je terus jatuh cinta....memang tak lah kan....haha...so, everyone with every own ideal type...nie aku, korang aku tak tahulah kan...=)

you are my everything

the loneliness of nights alone

the search for strength to carry on

my every hope has seemed to die

my eyes has no more tears to cry

then like the sun shining up above

you surrounded me with your endless love

coz all the things i couldn't see

are now so clear to me

you are my everything

nothing your love wont bring

my life is yours alone

the only love i've ever known

your spirit pulls me through

when nothing else will do

every night i pray

on bended knees

that you will always

be my everything

you're the breath of life in me

the only one that sets me free

and you have made my soul complete

for all time

for all time

you are my everything

nothing your love wont bring

my life is yours alone

the only love i've ever known

your spirit pulls me through

when nothing else will do

every night i pray

on bended knees

that you will always

be my everything

oh my everything

he make me feel in love with 'them'

assalammualaikum and anyeonghaseyo....

nie r namanya bila tak ada idea...hahaha...so, apa khabar belaka??sihat???moga sihatlah erk...haha...okay, kali nie saja2 tak ada idea...aku nak share r sikit how i can feel in love with SUPER JUNIOR nie r kan....kita buka cerita awal2 r...t aku wat entry lain pula how i deeply feel in love with this hallayu star nie...nie kira starter r how aku kenal suju and how suju attract me to know them better r kiranya....kalau nak cerita macam mana dorang tarik aku makin jatuh sayang pada suju nie...panjang sangat coz every member have their own attraction that make me...feel like in the air everytime i watch them either on the stage or anywhere....all of this is because of CHOI SIWON....

first sekali...aku dah pernah cerita in previous entry...i start to know this daebak group because of their one of hit song, NO OTHER...it is a sweet and nice song...for 2month i heard this song every night...and my roomate and housemate like to keep on repeat that song and its video...they said it is one of their video that not in white and black like SORRY-SORRY and BONAMANA but at that time..i still not familiar with them, so, i juz nodded with what they said even i did not understand it....

if there anyone and of course E.L.F watch their NO OTHER video...they start with 8 of them and SIWON start sing first right???hehehe....when i saw him first in the video...i like "wooow, he handsome and sweet!!!"...but i just shouted it in my heart....at that time i not a kpop lover like now...but i did not hate it or anti with it...i just not much interested with kpop that time...as time passing with my friends help with their obsession with that song...i really do think that siwon very handsome and my eyes were only watch him in their music video....hehehe

then, i start to collect suju mv from my friends...but actually i already had a few of their mv like TWINS, BONAMANA, S.E.O.U.L, U...my friend put it in my notebook...i start to watch their mv and a few of their song, siwon shi start first right???arrrhhhhh...at that time i was like..."wow...seriously he was sooooo handsome,"....hehehe....like TWIN, BONAMANA, SORRY2, U...he start first right???and then i watched hoot by snsd, their labelmate....siwon was staring in that mv...hehehe...i watched that mv only

because i want to watch siwon actually...hehe...

and once, LEETEUK, the leader, he explain why siwon always be in the center of the group...it was like a first impression for their group...people will see they were a handsome group with siwon in the center....hahaha...but actually...i think it was quite good strategy because it happen to me...hehe...i start to know super junior because of siwon....huhu...and from there, i start to watch their show like SUJU FULLHOUSE, EXPERIMENT HUMAN BODY and other...and i start to know this prince...the member said that siwon is their prince as siwon give the feel with his personality,..

then, i start to know siwon...maybe he's not a humorous person like other member but his personality already make he look funny...with his hand gesture, his daily life...make his members said he was a funny person...donghae like to impersonate siwon's daily life...start with him woke up, how he throw his cloth into the basket like he throw basketball, then, his gesture "go to gym" and last, when he home, he had his breakfast and listen to jazz music..it make others laugh each time they revealed it like in strong heart, guriella date and come to play....even his 'three finger' gesture already make people laugh...since he is rise up from a very strict family, i can see his strict life...

smoker....out of my way

~~~assalammualaikum n wan an (selamat malam)~~~

HOW LONG CAN YOU LIVE????????....wahhh...aku rasa soalan nie gempak nie...well...memanglah kan....orang kata ajal maut, jodoh semua tu di tangan Yang Maha Esa but...tak bermaksud kita hanya berserah tanpa usaha kan...lagi2 yang mana membunuh diri sendiri and orang di sekeliling tu...whose??? to the smoker2 out there....aissshhhh...sebenarnya aku kena buat presentation about smoking...one of the social problem....tsssk2....kot sedih aku tengok hasil dari pencarian aku.....

to the smokers out there, aku bukan nak kutuk ke apa...it is korang punya gaya hidup...korang yang pilih to kill yourself kan???so, itu lantak hal koranglah....tapi aku bukanlah apa kan...kalau nak rokok tu...boleh tak kalau korang rokok tempat2 tersorok sikit...aku rasa deme2 yang merokok PASTI and OF COURSE KNOW that not only smoking killed but also it asap too....asap yang korang hembus berkepul2 dengan bangganya tu....hahhhh!!! asap tulah...korang ingat sedap ke asap rokok tu kitorang sedut???sedap lagi aku rasa kalau aku telan nasi kosong saje pun.....and aku rasa smoker tahu yang asap tu dia punya percentange membunuh dia lagi tinggi dari korang yang menghisapnya....kalau tak tahu tu...macam pelik je...ke korang buat2 tak tahu??? tak kisahlah..kalau korang tak tahu, sekarang aku dah bagitahu kan...even tak sedetailnya lah......

aku salu tengok juga orang2 nie...okay fine...first thing i want to know is him or her smoke or not...not because i dont want to be friend with them just, in case...aku kawan je dengan para smoker nie tapi once aku tahu dia smoke...even before nie aku envy dia ke apa..automatic it turns down...dari aku kagum...jadi aku macam...huuuuhhh...gitulah...tak tahu perkataan apa da best nak describe....so, for me...its show ur personality right????bukannya smoker nie jahat2...tapi just...entahlah...just pada aku...smoke dari rokok tu yang aku tak sukanya....buat aku sesak nafas....lagipun....it killed right??tak sanggup aku tengok kesan2 dari merokok nie...kot sadis sangat....apa effect dia???well...biasalah sakit jantung, kanser bagai tu...alah korang lagi tahulah.....even aku rasa semua orang can think r effect smoking nie....so, katakan TAK NAK kepada rokok!!!!!!!