i want to move on

i decided to move on...seriously decision...even agak berat pun sebenarnya...berat bukan sebab apa..sebab hati sendiri yang tak nak lepaskan...but i keep push my heart to forget u..it will be hard but from hurting myself again n again, i better to try than keep on be like this...spend a few days together make me realize how stupid i am..make me realize that i'm da only one that had this stupid feeling...again n again i keep on said to myself to forget u...this time it is serious thing..n i hope i can do it...tak nak diperbodohkan lagi..tak nak fikir over2 lagi...lepas nie tak jumpa kan3?so, aku selamat r kot dari dihantui ko...before nie boleh je lupakan, takkan now tak leh kan3?okay...tu je...

crush?

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

‘Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
‘Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay


Read more: DAVID ARCHULETA - CRUSH LYRICS

hurt....AGAIN

well...for a time being tak jumpa...n i hope to meet u again...seriously...i put quite high hoping to meet u...n i do seriously not expected to meet u today...but my happy feeling see u vanished right away after i saw u with  another girl...uhukkkssss...it was like a knife stabbing into my heart at that time...why must i meet u like this???WHY???seriously, it do feel really hurt...this is 2nd time i feel hurt...but i cannot blame u...i do like u but i never say it...and i will never ever say it...cause i know what type of a girl that u admire...and of course, i'm not that type of girl...n for me, i want to look like i was like chasing u...hurmmmm...now my mind is totally blow up and miserable feeling hunted me right now...my head keep on playing what i saw just now...i want to stop this but i can't...why heart...i want to let go of this feeling...but my heart doesn't give me that chance...until when will this feeling will keep on...it is until i hurt and hurt again?just me that always feel there is a chance to be with u but it all false and a lie...a biggest lie...it was only an empty hope...i do feel really happy when we were together...but then, i realize...maybe it is only a short term feeling...n now i do feel empty and a loose...loose for that kind of feeling and losing a close friend...i didn't realize it much until just now...hurmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

my feel when with you

"if she comfortable around you, she'll tackle you, sing to you, be weird around you, dance for you, scream at you, take your food, be mean to you"

trust

assalammualaikum

okaylah...still in mood hockey lagi sebenarnya...even my entry topic is TRUST...well, thing that i observed sepanjang hockey kat utem nie la...from a person yang tak pernah tahu main atas, aku belajar main atas...tapi confident dia setakat jadi defend je r...nak main striker, wing tu, cam belum lagi...sebenarnya aku yang takut nak try...but sikit2 now i'm trying...
apa kena mengena trust dengan hockey kan...well, petang2 aku turun training, training dengan budak laki...main small game pun dengan budak laki...where did i learn to improve my skills? yeap exactly from them...tak minta dorang ajar pun...just belajar by observing...at first, it was quite hard to get ball from the boys...sumpah payah...dari last sem kot...kira dah almost setahun nie...but not all, i get my confidence sebab ada kawan2 yang baik hati bagi chance ke kitorang try...nak tayang gak r nama dorang...like acap n aed...acap is the best person i meet since dia betul2 bagi peluang ke budak2 untuk belajar...even dari tak tahu apa2...i'm learning from them...then makin lama, i improved...n since aku banyak main bawah pun, but at least, i can defend...sikit2 gak start dapat bola dari budak2 nie...start regain their trust maybe...
lately nie, aku main dengan senior2...biasa ni main gak tapi entah...seriusly ada senior yang aku tak leh pergi langsung...sumpah kekok...but for 1 part i remember masa kitorang main small game, dorang siap ajar ke mana aku patut pergi...and dorang sendiri pass bola tu...it is something pada orang tak perlu bangga but for me, its quite terharu sebenarnya...and ada se lagi small game...camtu gak...aku duduk dekat bawah macam biasa...dulu, salu aku tunggul je kat bawah tu...tapi this time, ada senior yang suruh pass bola tu ke aku supaya aku boleh buka n cari ruang untuk bagi ke team...i took quite long time to get this...but pada aku, adat r...practice make perfect...usaha tangga kejayaan...n so on la...if aku tak turun training, memang takde harapan la kan nak improve...
then, again a small game...masa tu tak ramai..masa tu aku group with 2 boys, n pihak lawan ad 2 girls...n one of the girls is a newbie...aku marah dekat budak2 laki yg ada sebab aku suruh bagi chance dekat dak perempuan tu...budak perempuan tu taknak2...macam aku dulu2...but masa tu gak aku cakap it is for her confidence level...n aku ingat lagi budak laki dok bahan aku...contohi aku...confident habis sekarang...ngek tol peragai...sebenarnya takde r confident gila2 but at least i do have the confidence...all of it come from training n juga bantuan members...

terus terang dulu aku dah nak stop hockey nie...but getting to know kawan2 yang gila2 like geng2 jemah tu, members yang happening, senior yang okay n juga crush...opsss, okay takde2..mne ada crush...haha...it make me feel really happy to be in team...even kena bahan teruk2 pun, but itu yang make me smile, make me laugh, make stress disappered n others la...senang cerita bawa kegembiraan la...itu sebab ye aku tak jadi stop hockey...dari malu turun training, sampai dah tak kisah turun training seorang perempuan until la now...senang cerita, have amazing, nice n good friends with u, benda yang tak suka pun, u will like it as long as u do it together...n bout the trust...itu je cerita dia...well, tak mudah nak regain trust orang...payah sangat...but as long as u keep do it, make it better...sikit2 mata dorang akan terbuka...just one thing, bila orang dah tahu apa yang kita boleh...orang jarang nak ubah pandangan tu...as for me, i start as keeper...so, bila aku tak main keeper, i know a few people tak boleh terima...bila aku nak try main atas, even tak dicakap depan2 pun but pertikaian tentang itu still ada n i know it...but tak salah if i want to change kan?bukan aku tak tahu apa2...i know what i can do...okay tu je...bye