sharing

it is a big secret..i take courages to tell u..bukan sebab apa..sebab kau kenal sebenarnya...kalau kau tak kenal, aku rasa aku boleh cerita kot dari dulu...tapi bab kau gelakkan aku tu...sumpah rasa nak campak kau dalam laut yang kat depan mata tu...geram je..rasa nak sepak kau pun ada...siapa suruh tanya...aku pun cam sengal ubi juga pergi cerita kan...tak pe...lepas nie bila lagi kau nak jumpa dia...kau kan dah nak stop...so percentage nak jumpa tu sangatlah jauh...

sebenarnya aku serius ingat kau dah tahu..sebab kau usik aku, bahan aku tu...macam..macam lah kau dah tahu...aku yang cerita ke kau pun tak rasa apa...yang terbeban sangat nie dah kenapa???tapi aku rasa, aku paham kot feeling tu...huwaaaaaaaaa....datang timing jujur dan ikhlas aku nie...kau hadap je lah...nak buat macam mana kan...aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku cam tegar gak r nak cerita...i think sebab macam dah simpan lama kottt...kottt laaaa...dia rasa cam nak cerita kat orang...aku pun cerita la...okay sekarang terasa malu pula bila fikir balik kena gelak tu...part tu je...part kena gelak tu jeeee...perghhhhh...macam rammmmm sgtttt...

by the way...mekaseh for lend ur ears and mekaseh dok tahan sejuk kena bayu laut ke darat...cakap aku jenis ingat benda2 remeh...padahal kau pun sama...tapi malas nak tegur je...aku biar je...biar nampak aku ni caring sikit...hahaha...n for da time at saf...i'm lost sebabkan benda yang itulah...tp greatful gak ko join masa tu...takde lah aku krik2 sgt kat situ...dari takde mood pagi tu...i'm up with all those things happen...n se lg thank u for company me at that time...masing2 abaikan pe org nak bahan sebab mmg tak de apa yang berlaku kan..ko pun tegar dok berpanas n dengar cerita aku...greatful to have friend like you...tapi ini serious..feeling greatful to have friend like u...selalu jadi mangsa aku kalu stress ke ada masalah ke apa...heeeee

BMFU events for 5th sem

assalammualaikum

well management class..maybe kita nie nampak skema, nampak bebaik..tapi memang baik2 pun semua orang..tak ramai pun kelas nie..dalam 50 something like that..but this sem..ada a few events we're together...creating memories to be BMFU students...
dari raya lepas sampai p open house set2 melaka...until naik sem kita p USS, university studio singapore...and gegirls p sagil...picnic together bagai..then last big event is konvoi 6 buah kete p kahwin encik shah...the memories is seriously nice...serious i'm happy...so, recap a little gegambar untuk a few of our events

BMFU USS trip

Sagil time with gegurl

encik shah's wedding

heart broken

it is painful feeling..yeap heart broken..heart broken from:
i can see u but i can't talk to you
i want to talk to you badly but i scared...scared that you will not reply
i want you to realize bout my presence, but seem like you did not realize it at all
i gain strength to talk to you but then you replied it, but not like what i expect to
i miss you but i can't express it

feel like being left out

u brought me me here but then u left me
u said it gonna be fine but then i feel awkward
u said all of us gonna be okay but i think we're not
i'm try to involved but then i feel like i was left out
not only that, even i feel both of us were not closed like before
becoming more awkward to be with u
sometime it make me feel, i was abandoned
feel like i was not deserved and not accepted to be here
feel like i was not good as all of u
before u share ur story with me, but now u dont
u only share ur feeling that u couldnt tell other because it gonna be serious thing
how i want to overcome this???
this feeling of being left out was seriously killing me
until when i can hold this?until when i can stand with this?
should i just keep holding this grudge?i dont think i can

UMK sweetest memories

assalammualaikum...

wehuuuu...already a week since i come back from kelantan...well jauh okay berjalan dari melaka ke kelantan...pergi sebab apa???hikkssss...of course la hockey...disebabkan masum lepas xdihantar ye team wanita hoki...so, mereka janjikan nanti akan dihantarkan team untuk open bagai...nie kekonon macam nak ambil hati kot aku rasa...aku rasa r...tak kisahlah ambil hati ke tak...janji jauh kami pergi...
well, aku tak tahu lah...padahal indoor setahun lepas pergi juga...tapi maybe sebab aku kan budak baru last year...so, cam krik2 sikit...ni yang pergi sume set2 yang selalu lepak, menjemah bersama2...so, happening dia lain macam sikit...

so, buleh lepak sesama...borak sesama...and boleh kata semua sesama...perempuan pun leh duduk kumpul ramai2 kat living room, keluar sume isi perut, isi hati, isi limpa semua...terasa r bonding between us...selalu dengan lelaki payah sikit lah nak masuk ye...tapi yang pergi kali nie set2 puaka yang memang lenjan je semua...memang tak ke mana masa depan jadi ye...the best moment bila kau borak dalam bas, 1 bas involve in the conversation and memberi perhatian sambil kau selak, gelak, ketawa and meremang bulu roma sesama...1 bas bhai...part tu terkejut juga r...mana r tahu nak 1 bas involve...hahaha
then 1 part lagi, bila kau boleh makan 1 meja seramai2 tidak...masa nie boleh nampak yang mana yang pendiam tu, memang diam la tak boleh cakap apa,,,tapi ada gak yang try to get involve...lagi2 part mereka yang tak bercakap sangat...baru time nie la nak menegur2...buat lawak2 pula...bolehlah...nampak lah usaha dia tu...kekok memang kekok tapi sampai bila kan...bersyukur r ada penghibur suasana...at least takde r krik2 kat atas meja tu...
well, it is bonding between us i think...tapi it was sweetest memories to be there with you guys...kalau orang tanya apa yang sweetest sgt ye...ntah lah...it just the memories...tak tahu reason sebetulnya...or yang penting se lagi...rumah homestay mewah okay...dengan aircond bagai ye...selesa ye...tu rasa cam taknak balik tu gamakye...hewhew...hope dis bonding will last...