hurt....AGAIN

well...for a time being tak jumpa...n i hope to meet u again...seriously...i put quite high hoping to meet u...n i do seriously not expected to meet u today...but my happy feeling see u vanished right away after i saw u with  another girl...uhukkkssss...it was like a knife stabbing into my heart at that time...why must i meet u like this???WHY???seriously, it do feel really hurt...this is 2nd time i feel hurt...but i cannot blame u...i do like u but i never say it...and i will never ever say it...cause i know what type of a girl that u admire...and of course, i'm not that type of girl...n for me, i want to look like i was like chasing u...hurmmmm...now my mind is totally blow up and miserable feeling hunted me right now...my head keep on playing what i saw just now...i want to stop this but i can't...why heart...i want to let go of this feeling...but my heart doesn't give me that chance...until when will this feeling will keep on...it is until i hurt and hurt again?just me that always feel there is a chance to be with u but it all false and a lie...a biggest lie...it was only an empty hope...i do feel really happy when we were together...but then, i realize...maybe it is only a short term feeling...n now i do feel empty and a loose...loose for that kind of feeling and losing a close friend...i didn't realize it much until just now...hurmmmmmmmmmmmmmm