Thursday, June 9, 2011

dilemma

assalammualaikum, salam sejahtera and anyonghaseyo....=D


wahhhh....sian blog aku.,...dah berkepuk, berhabuk, bersawang dah...lama dah tak diupdate,,,bese r...malas punya pasal.....so, rnie aku terajin sikit r....
actually,,,,i'm in dilemma.....between my hurt, my feeling and my ego...there is something happen past 2 years...something that i can classify it as bad and horrible...because of something...a friendship that was build for 5 years...smash into pieces....hurrmmmm....i did know what happen actually...whose fault or whatever...but what i know...i'm getting annoyed and mad....it drive me to hate that person....but i don't think that i really hate, it just the angry feeling...and feel being betrayed...yesss!!!! betrayed....it really make me frustrated....along this,,,,i think that person was my besfren since we help each other a lot...especially in problem....but suddenly...arhhhhhh....i really don't expected about it....i'm hurt and feel being betrayed but a person that i trusted....i was like being stabbed back with a sharp knife....it really drive me to make barrier and without i realize it like being a bad feeling as i keep it as problem....but....i'm a person that get mad easily but cool quickly too...juz i dont want to bother that person since i think that person want to have goodtime with what it had done..


it was about 2 years ago...even that person try to build our friendship again...but when the chances come...it had be spoiled by other case....again it make me mad and make me don't want to keep on that friendship...now, once again that person come and said sorry about what had it done and realize it....i'm still don't give the answer but i give that person question...i want the truth,,,,and now...i still thinking about it...it will be okay if i juz forget what that person had done and back to where we had been before or it is better if i keep like this????i'm really stuck right now.....=(.....coz that person had used to be one that i really close

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