am i the wrong one?

pergghhh tajuk...cam sengal je kan??hahaha...bunyi cam gempak je...mesti korang terfikir benda gak lah aku nak cerita kan...yang pasti jangan ada yang terpikir aku gaduh dengan pakwe ke apa lah kan...benda tu tak berkaitan langsung dengan aku....hahaha...tapi jangan r cuak sangat...it just nothing...just a i think gedik punya ceritalah..

so, my friends should knew what person i am...aku nie tak reti nak cakap sopan2 nie...kalau dengan member2 r...memang cakap kadang2 tak berlapik sikit and cara aku cakap macam nak marah orang...part marah orang nie...memang aku salu kena tegur r...sedangkan aku tak berniat pun...even aku tak sedar...but even after kena tegur pun..aku still buat coz itu memang style aku cakap kot...kadang2 aku tak realize kot what i'm doing.....so, kalau tengok cara aku macam rock sangat...tak macam perempuan melayu terakhir tu...memang betullah tu aku...kot aku tak reti r nak berbudi bahasa sangat nie...especially dengan laki..tak kira r tua ke muda...tapi sebenarnya...bila ngan laki nie...bila guna bahasa kasar2 nie pada aku lagi kamcing dari dok bersopan santun sangat...bukan laki je r...perempuan pun...lagi comfortable tahu..

biasalah aku ni cakap kadang2 tak pandang orang sikit...dengan laki memang salu aku tak bertapis r...cakap pun tone memang selamba + nak marah punya tone...ayat pun cam ayat kadang2 ayat fire punya even aku tak niat pun..dah cara aku cakap macam tu....so, one day budak group aku msj aku tanya pasal kerja...n aku balas something r...pada aku ayat aku tu biasa but for my other friend, she look it really like i mad...macam aku nak marah gila...sedangkan pada aku itu just percakapan biasa je...

nak dijadikan cerita...after that, aku contact, aku mesej memang dia tak balas r kan..dah r kitorang group...ada assignment...meamng sepi r...bila dah nak duedate even aku call pun tak angkat...so, mengadu r kat set2 study group aku...boleh plak dorang gelak...memang r...tak ke gaya macam merajuk je tu...setiap kali aku buka cerita pasal tu, mesti dorang gelak r...memang r...aku nie ganas kena pula bekerja dengan mamat yang sopan..tak ke jauh darjat ye 2????mau tak kena gelak....

bila aku fikir2 balik...it is my fault???bukan kan???aku tak bersalah pun kot...dah tu memang style aku...nak tak nak kena r terima...kot kalau nak syahdu2 ngan aku...memang tak r...tu namanya nak makan penampor free tu...tak pun nak kena sengkeh...pas nie minta2 r aku tak dapat dengan budak2 yang sopan...susah benor nak jaga hati bagainya....hahaha

1 night with static n midnyte tour

assalamualaikum....

kabare sume????hehehe...so, today...just wakeup around afternoon since i just got back home at dawn....last night...had my all night with my friends...seriously...even i think it was like a dream...hehehhe...
so, my friends fetch us at our hostel around 9 like that...then we went to the campus in town...we reach there around 10 i think...then, we start our study group...since our 1st paper final is static and our basic about static were totally out, so, we focused on static....everyone were very focus...but it was a successful study group...we not just stay talking and do other thing....everyone do exercise together...share knowledge and other...it was very good right...
then, at 1 a.m...we stop a while went out...we had supper outside the campus...there were people karoeke there...argghhh..i feel like want to destroy the machine...it was too noisy and loud...then, we went back and start again....
then, i already out of the limit...so, i said it was enough...then, we packed our stuff and suddenly...my friend ask either we want to round melaka or not...i quickly shouted 'YYYEEESS'...hahaha....then, he took us round melaka...right now...it was monsun right???breeze was very strong and it was cold...i feel like it was winter...hahaha...then, we took a walk beside melaka river maybe...then, we follow the driver that want to search a place...then, at 5 am....he said us back....
we reached our hostel already subuh...so, i prayed and then, i slept...if i'm not sleep...i think i can be a panda bear or zombie....hehehe...really had fun last night...a night that full with knowledge and full with fun....

almost get into an accident

assalammualaikum and morning....

gempak tak aku punya topik? a little bit right???hahaha...but seriously it happen today...i mean yesterday since it already pass 12 midnyte right...so, petang semalam, aku ada study group...first time involve study group becampur nie...teman kawan aku r katakan..so, kira kami bertiga dari bunga raya ni and ada orang ambil...destinasi dia adalah library utem yang terchenta...haha
so, after drop one of us, biasalah dorang nie baik hati...rajin nak tolong hantar2 orang nie...kitorang gerak r ke utem...ikut jalan TTU...tak perlu tahulah kat mana kecuali rasaya orang melaka tahu kot....so, kitorang take roundbout situ....since kitorang dari pukul 6, kena masuk ke pukul 1 tak silap(bahasa roundbout)....kalau tak paham wat2 paham je...so, kitorang dah pusing roundbout tu tinggal nak masuk je...tukg driver dah bagi signal nak masuk ke kiri...and seriously memang aku tak sedar rupanya ada kereta nak masuk kira nak cross jalan kitorang...aku sedar bila member aku kata depan cakap "eh2...kenapa kete nie weyh???kenapa nie weyh"....somthing like that r...masa tulah baru aku nampak...astagafirullah...kete kitorang naik and kete yang nak cross tu...arggghhhh...lagi seinci nak belanggar...dah r betul2 side aku...memang muncung kete masg2 dah nak bercium sangat r...tinggal seinci gitu je kot...
once aku nampak tu...secara automatikye..aku mengeluarkan suara emas aku...aku menjerit sekuat hati kot...even in short time pun..tapi disebabkan aku jerit...kawan aku yang tak pernah2 menjerit...suddenly screaming...kira jeritan kami berpadu r...bergema kejap kereta tu...memang break mengejutlah kan...after aku n kawan aku jerit...kete benti...masa tu semua diam...sakit dada kot terkejut punya pasal...memang sipi sangat weyh...kalau berlanggar tu...memang insyallah aku paling teruk sebab side aku...then, dengan selamba dude ye kete yang cross tiba2 tanpa sabar tu berlalu pergi like nothing happen...membe aku yang drive pun meneruskan perjalanan....tapi sumpah cuak...aku and kawan aku dah tergelak mengenangkan kitorang yang menjerit gila2 tu...
yang tukg drive diam je kat depan tapi aku tahu dia cuak...wat2 cool...membe kat sebelah dok mengomen cakap kitorang tak bersalah...but memang betul pun...dah bagi signal semua..and kami bukan dijalan yang tak benar ye...betul2 ada di lorong yang sepatutnya...sakit jantung...tapi syukur alhamdulillah...nothing happen...kira Allah masih panjangkan umur kami semua...tak pernah kot aku sipi2 jadi macam tu...pergh...seram doe....whatever hope after ni kami akan lebih berhati2 lah...insyallah....

sorry2 n U

assalamualaikum...morning...eheheh

so, today saja nak bercerita...semalam aku kua bandar ngan ngodong2 a.k.a member2 aku...mula2 g bowling kelas..then, we went to melaka mall to watch MISSION IMPOSSIBLE:GHOST PROTOCOL....pergghhh...memg ghost betul r citer nie...banyak gila suspens kot...i almost died from shock watching this moving...especially when the climaks..their action was seriusly very imppresive...even the gadgets make us feel excited...it was very good story...
so, after cinema, we went to surau and solat...then, we went to karoke...maybe it is not a good one but it was fine..just want to let out our stress because nex week wil be our final exam for sem1 in first year...so, we choose song..then suddenly my friends saw super junior songs...i getting excited...very excited...there were only 2 songs...sorry2 and U...it was much better if there is no other or bonamana or mr simple,,hahaha....i choose U because it was more easier to sing compare sorry2...hehehe...but my member choose both songs without i know it....



it was quite funny actually...hahaha...both of us getting excited it come to super junior songs..the other one she just smiling...she's not kpop bias like us...she like to watch korean drama more than follow kpop band....i thought it will have romanization but too bad...it was in chinese...chinese???even it was sang in chinese...aigooo...my friends quickly stop the audio...and we sing it with our own lyrics...hahaha...it was quite funny but since both of us remember it...it being smoothly end even i know the lyrics was very...funny since we did not know it trully in hangul...
then, sorry2...my other one friends volunteer to sing so, i give her the mike...we thought it will be in romanization but once again...it was in chinese...aiggoooo...how can we understand it....she quickly pass the mike to me...once again, we sang it with our own lyrics...hehehe...but seriously compare to U...sorry2 much more faster and even i almost hard to catch breath sing this song...my friends and i get up and we dance sorry2...since she cannot sing..she only volunteer to dance...hahaa...it was really happening moment...really love that moments...even we make our own lyric but i was very satisfied because at last...i can sing suju songs....hahaha...i want to find other karoke place that have kpop songs...i want to sing it again...hahaha

kami berbowling

asalammualaikum.....

lagi 2 weeks...will be final exam for 1st sem in utem...debor tak debor r...yg pasti aku agak rilek...xde r rilek tapi jenis tak tahu nak buat apa...aku memang..setiap kali 1st thing memang lost...macam tyme menengah atas pun..f4 aku belajar entah apa2...eqn chem yg seng pn tak dapat buat deee....asasi pun gitu juga...1st sem spoiler kot....tapi insyallah...kat sini boleh...yakin boleh gitu....actually...today kelas aku buat bowling...aku saja join...nak suport kelas kononye...sekali bhai...memang tak ramai yg datg rupanya...mula2 tu agak frust juga r sebab aku ingat ramai join..but rupanya tu orang cakap..jangan nak predict over2 dulu kan...memang gempak sieyhhh...

so, apa2 aku ucap terima kasih bebanyak kat aidil, budak kelas aku yang baik hati ambil kitorang kat bunga raya even ambil lambat sikit kan...memg nie kira macam 1st tyme juga r aku bercakap ngn budak laki sesaje selain dari hal pelajaran sume....since dia tua a few years dari kitorg...so,nmpk r dia treat kitorang nie macam adik kan...sekali sampai memang tak r...kitorg je yang ada...terpaksa menunggu yg lain...bila dah sampai, kitorang pun start game...eh biasalah...aku nie bukan salu main pun...ada r dalam 2 kali before nie...so, nak dijadikan cerita memang wat spoiler grup r...tapi tak ada r teruk sangat...ada je aku strike and spare erk...even tak semua datang pun...tapi still kecoh r..boleh r rasa hubungan silaturahim tu makin rapat antara kitorang....rasa kalau semua datang mahu roboh bangunan tu...hehe...but kurang2 benda nie wat aku kenal r style2 budak kelas aku...mana anak manja, mana yang boleh masuk, mana yang caring na bagai lagi r...whatever...really enjoy today games guys even aku ni nombor 2 tercorot pun kan...al least release tension aku...hahaha

pics kami berbowling

endless moment...

In this cold world, I lived without anything of special value
I couldn’t help but cry when I walked the dark streets
I’ve been waiting for you for a long time,
For someone who’s just like me
I want give my loneliness to you
My endless moment, I pray for you
I can’t imagine my life without you
I don’t want us to separate, ever
Even a little smile from you, brings me happiness
I’ll make a promise to you; this isn’t a dream
Many days will pass and I’ll still be yours
My shining moment, forever
There are times when my hasty feelings cause trouble
So let’s remember the good memories
I’ve been waiting for you for a long time,
For someone who’s just like me
I want give my loneliness to you
My endless moment, I pray for you
I’ll never desire anyone else but you
Many days will pass and I’ll still be yours
My shining moment, forever
Girl, My Heart is cold,
Please come back to me
My shining moment, forever

good luck along

tiba2 terasa nak bercerita pasal along r plak kan...bukan nak cerita pasal along sangatlah...more to our journey masa nak hantar dia ke india ri2....btw..introduce jugalah sikit kan...kat pic tu ada gambar aku and along aku....ada iras tak???haha...tu abang sepupu aku...bukan abang aku pula...ramai gak r member2 aku yang mana tak tahu aku nie anak sulung...once aku cerita pasal along aku...mesti dorang tanya..."ko ada abang ke?"...bukanlah...along aku tu abang sepupu aku...aku lebih rapat ngan family belah ayah aku dari mak aku...sebab aku lagi banyak jumpa dorang kot...tapi aku rasa sebab jarak antara kitorang tak jauh beza r...cucu2 belah mak ayah aku semua tengah belajar lagi...tapi belah johor...majoriti semua dah kahwin, dah anak pun....
along aku nie skang student kat manipal university kat india....dia memang student cemerlang r...dari sekolah rendah lagi...until now...result dia tak perlu aku sebut r...dulu dia pernah ambil engeneering kat utp...tapi agaknya tak kena ngan jiwa n raga dia...once dia dapat tawaran medic...dia kua utp terus ambil medic...persediaan 2 tahun...now, kira baru 1st year degree r....memang role model terbaik r dia nie...
aku tak ingat exactly when kami hantar dia...hari apa pun aku tak ingat...cuma aku ingat aku gerak dari temerloh...sampai kat sana....memang ramai gila r kan budak2 yang nak g...budak2 jpa n mara...g tyme yang sama...bakal2 doktor kan...memang bergaya habislah....memang tak sesat nak cari dorang dalam klia tu...besor kan....tu baru klia...kalu yang airport2 kat lua negara tu...mahu along aku berlepas pun tak tentu aku jumpa....
boleh kata kami se family besar r ada...except family pakde..pakde keje...tak campur g family belah sana....memang ramai jugalah...biasalah cucu kesayangan kan....untung jadi along nie...ramai sangat orang sayang...hahaha...so, sampai2...g makan mcd sama2...duduk beborak sama2...bagailah...
sampai r tyme perpisahan...memang tyme nie aku and angah, adik along dah agak...mesti ada yang berair mata..wajib r kan...sedih kot nak berpisah jauh2....so, dah wish good luck, dah ambil gambar, dah bersalaman semua...tyme the show...bila wan(nenek), umi(mak along) n seangkatan dah berpeluk2...memang macam air terjun air mata masing2...sedih jugalah tengok dorang nangis...berat sungguh tengok dorang nak lepaskan along....isk2....tapi awat aku cam tak ada perasaan je...ye r...along kan g study...bukan ke mana pun...lagipun every year insyallah boleh jumpa...balik raya kan...
so, bila dia dah masuk balai berlepas...kitorang semua duduk keliling kawasan balai berlepas tu sebab dari atas boleh nampak along yang kat bawah...pergh memang sedikit sedih r once along sempat berpusing cari kitorang kat atas...jauh kot nak berpisah....bila dia dah masuk, masing2 bersyukur n berdoa moga2 r sampai dengan selamatnya....habis episod kat situ...balik umah acu kat shah alam...then after that, along cerita rupanya until now setiap kali dia call wan, confirm nangis....hahaha...wan2...bese r...along jaga dia selama nie..tiba2 along g jauh...memang terasa syahdu r...kitorang pun jaga juga wan tapi mungkin tak sebaik along kot...tak apalah long...gudluck r kat sana...study molek2...bakal doktor kan...nie pun aku sambung carier yang sepatutnya dia ambil dulu...insyallah....

aku bermake up

hahah....nie hasil oleh chingu baik aku selepas dia make up kan aku...tak tebal sangat...kot t kalah artis plak kan...cukup r dia make up aku sikit...tu pun aku dah kena nag, kena marah sebab tak reti duduk diam...memang tak r kan nak aku duduk diam bila muka aku kena sental ngan make up...
bila tengok balik...quite funny r....mau tak...bejaya jugak r sorok kan my pimples and seangkatan dengannya kan...but still can not challange member aku yang kerjakan aku nie...
tiba2 aku teringat my mom...dulu dia excited kot g kelas make up...beli barang2 make up...sekali sekarang benda2 tu dia pass ke aku...ri2 aku nak pinjam kejap barang make up dia...aku tak ingat nak guna untuk apa..amboi...excitednya la my mom coz dia ingat anak dia nak pakai barang make up tu..tak adalah membazir kan...tapi sorry r ibu...barang2 make up tu sihat walafiat tak bersentuh pun dalam beg make up tu...duduk menyemak je dalam loker tu...hehehe...tak sampai seru g r nak make up nie...
now aku pergi kelas pun...tengok mood...kalau rajin, aku pakai r bb cream and compact powder...kalau tak, memang cukuplah aku pakai toner and mosturizer...dah cukup r tu...tak payah lebih2....hahaha...once aku tengok member2 aku pun...kalau geng2 aku...memang tak adalah yang make up beria...juz pakai compact powder jadilah...tapi ada juga pakai make up....amboilah...kagum aku tengok dorang nie bersiap...memang tak kejaplah...biasalah...banyak stage kan...tak apa korang...aku support korang...fighting...
so, insyallah r...bila tiba masa...maybe aku pakai...kot dah nak masuk 20 nie...tak reti berhias...macam tak matured sangat r pula kan...tapi tak salah kan...as long, as we comfortable with ourselves...betul tak???so, tengoklah nanti...mana tahu aku dapat seru pakai make up...aku pakai...tapi kalau tak...cukup r sekadar ala kadar...tak ada ye r korang tak kenal aku even aku tak bermake up pun...muka aku sama je..dari kecil sampai ke besar...tu sebab geng2 sekolah rendah aku dapat cam aku lagi tu...so, make your day simple doing what you want to do

the best leader,,,leeteuk

assalamualaikum .....

baru lepas tengok mv baru smtown...santa you are the one...suju nyanyi...so sweet lagu tu...lagu tu dalam english tapi aku dengar macam dah campur2 ngan korea dh gayanya...haha...suddenly feel like want to talk about this great and the best group leader...super junior leader...park jungsoo a.k.a leeteuk.....i followed their show from their debut until now....and i observe each of them progressing especially my biases...really like leeteuk oppa in each variety show especially...and he got the charisma...from serious to cute to dorky...he is everything....

from a flower boy...now, he already 28...and 29 korean age....really feel sad because nex year he will enlist to army....wahhhhh....i just get to like him...but still i feel i like him even more each day since i fill up my day with super junior show....when i said to my friend that i like leeteuk now...my friend said that he was old...nevermind...even he's old but he still have his own charming and for me...he is not....he's still young....hehehehe....he born in 1 july 1983...but his face does'nt show his age right???because he like to smile...thats why i think he getting more younger and younger...hahahaah

the repackage album 2011...consist of A-cha....i really like this song because i like leeteuk oppa part...the high note part....once i had read a comment about his part...some people did not believe that actually he can do the high note but it was....he really make it...even in santa you are the one...there is the high note part...and it was really great...actually...leeteuk oppa is not the lead vocal...and as i heard most of the song...he only get a few part in their songs....but if i'm not mistaken early this year or last year...he participated in enjoy today...in this show they gather various kind of celebrity including mc, actor and idol...leeteuk is one of the mc i think...he replace seungri big bang if i'm not mistaken...in this show, leeteuk singing ability really showed up....he got many compliment and praises for his sing ability....even he always get high marks for his performance...maybe some people will said that he is a singer but...he does'nt have his own single like other members....he really give good impression along other participate...i really like his song with krystal, grumbling in that show...and that song win the 1st place....even, i realise...in mr. simple...leeteuk get more part than before....

these just his pictures before...his old pictures but he is handsome right??? sincerely...leeteuk is not my 1st bias...but as the time passes...he's getting higher place in my heart...until once i feel...it is fine if i don't have boyfriend as long as i watch leeteuk, hear his voice even not in real....hahaha...like a crazy person right???hahaha....i think E.L.F should know about the super junior accident involving leeteuk, kyuhyun, eunhyuk, shindong and their managers....it was seriously shock news...back at that time..i was not an E.L.F...but when i heard about it...it was a really painful news...kyuhyun and leeteuk seriously injured...kyuhyun had internal injured while leeteuk had external injured....even he had glasses near his eyes and his face...he get total 170 stitches for his injury....and kyuhyun,,,,really serious injured...he almost died...and almost lost his sweet song...but thanks to his father and the doctor that try to save his speciality.....he able to sing and perform back with his super junior members....

people said that boys cannot cried....it is true????i don't think so...yeah...maybe it is because man is a strong person compare to woman, girls...but sometime...there is the time when even boys get sad right??and sometime happy thing can even make tears flow without we realize...i think...even leeteuk is not the king of tears like donghae....but he cried the most i think...especially during their concert...almost of their concert...he cried...in E.H.B...because of his dongsaeng(brothers members) tears...he cried too...it is not show that he is weak but it show how he really express himself....he get touched easilly....when i saw he cried...my tears flow too...not only him but other members too...even when they cried because of their friendship, their hardship...it really heartbroken to see their tears....

i like this pictures...the cute leeteuk...hehehe...now....i think leeteuk is one of the busiest member...once he hold 7 and more show as the permenant guest...even he had his own show...like the latest...he has teukigayo in strong heart, mc in starking, hello baby appa with sistar, involve in we got married with kang sora, a show with shin dung yup(i can't remember the show) and others...from a beginner...now, he is one of the best young mc....his ability in emceiing cannot be deny....he also a dj in their own radio, SUKIRA together with his fellow member, eunhyuk...but now, as he was too busy with his schedule, he had pass sukira to his fellow members, sungmin and ryewook after 5 years conduct the radio.....

a great appa right???he show his father side towards his baby...the baby very happy just to be with him...really love to see him everytime they had fun time together....btw...he had a very funny older sister and they were very awkward to each other...but his sister was very funny like him....

leeteuk was a very multitalented person....he can play various music instruments like piano, saxophone....even he is one of the main dancer in his group....in ss4...he get all attraction during his solo performance while playing saxophone and piano...he even can compose song too....he is really multitalented leader....he not only can sing and dance, but he also can play music instruments, compose song even acting...even just a cameo in a few drama or sitcom...but it still show that leeteuk can act...once, in foresight, a super junior talkshow....leeteuk show his acting ability in ep8 if i'm not mistaken...he act as angry due of some task...even he cried because that scene was a sad scene....he really do leave me a huge impression like....WOOOOOOWWWW....he was AWESOME....really AWESOME......

btw....forgot to tell...leeteuk really love white....it was!!!!if he did not any white cloth, usually his watch or other accessories will be white....almost of his cloth were white...i really like white too!!!okay...it was not related with this...sorry....i like his dimple too...it look charming and cute...hehehe...but seriously as the time passes...i really feel in love with leeteuk....as a fan...but i'm still a normal fan...maybe quite bit like a fanatic but i'm still can think rationally.... i just admire him....sometime i think...we only had 24 hours per day...but how can he manage his life as he is a very busy person????but one thing i like about him...even he tired, he still try to smile and be chill as he was...and i like the way he answer the question especially the fan ques....he answered it with very good and like he appreciate his fans...he really love his fans...and E.L.F....hope he will be much better in future...i will keep support him...even if he enlisted....for me, there were many group leaders....but i still believe and still want to shout that LEETEUK is the BEST leader ever.....

kami bersama durian

teringat balik zaman sekolah dulu...every year wajib ada pesta durian...every musim durian....and salu durian dia agihkan dalam ikut kelas...sepanjang lima tahun tu....aku ada gambar tyme form5 nie je...hahaha....bersama set2 kelas 5 archimedes yang tersayang...cewah...kot gedik semacam bunyi ye....haha...tapi memang aku sayang r kelas nie...cukup warna...set2 skema dalam nie....set2 sengal dalam nie....semualah ada....hahaha....lagi2 frekuensi ngan dak2 kelas nie sama rata je belaka....walaupun ada frekuensi lain sikit...tapi aku consider sama jelah....hahaha

memang durian menyatukan kamilah kan....teringat aku tyme nie...izzul yang puasa dengan baik hatinya tolong kami mengupas durian nie....sebab yang lain semua dah terliur nak makan....sampai nak bukak durian pun dah tak sanggup....agaknya dorang risau takut terngap terus sekali dengan buah durian tu....hehe....haru biru tyme nie...sebab setiap kali orang bukak je durian, terus kena sambar...setiap kali kopek je durian terus orang sambor....mana tak kecoh...ada yang dapat banyak...ada yang dapat sikit...tu pun lebih extra sebab sibut tak makan...hahaha...ish3...rugi r tak makan weyh...aku pun tak adalah gila durian sangat tapi makan ramai2....memang bestlah....hahaha...sepakat membawa berkat kan....hahaha....sebenarnya saja post tentang dorang nie...teringat zaman2 nak spm dulu...set2 nie r berjuang bersama2...hahaha....banyak g event 5 arc nie wat tapi saja je nak postkan pasal pesta durian nie...ada jodoh dapat berjumpa g sekelas...insyallah.....

at last

tiba2 saja teringat....last few days....i got a call...call from someone that i'm quite closed before....but for the first call...that person just want me to do something...call juz asked for help...okay....then...i got other call from the same person...and this time that person told me that i don't have to do what he asked before...than...finally...we had a quite long conversation...actually not a conversation because it more to what we call it...can i thought it as a sharing problem???yeah2...suddenly that person share problem with me....i juz lean my ears for....actually..because of a problem before...since that person had broke my heart before....i actually juz heard all the problem because of pity....not like before that i had all my heart to hear the problem or stories or anything...it was like i heard it with half hearted....

kelakar pulak bila fikir balik...back to last year...orang tu dengan segala bangganya menyatakan aku nie jadi punca kenapa dia stress...bukan aku tak perasan...yesss....ko tak selesa...because i was in the middle between of you...yeahh...aku yang menyelit tiba2....and mungkin kau tak selesalah dengan sikap aku antara korang or senang ceritalah...kau dah dapat kawan baru...fine...aku yang kau dah kenal before nie...okaylah...i'm not closed with you anymore...aku nie dah jadi beban sampai kau nak mengamuk2...and the best part is...you admit, you confess in FRONT of me...not in telephone or message but face to face that you think that we cannot be best friend like before...but actually i already know that you will talk bout that...so, i already accept it....since than....memang aku tak contact langsung kau...kecuali bila perlu...buat apa aku contact orang yang rasa aku nie beban kepada diri dia kan???lagipun orang dah buang kita...tak perlu terhegeh2 aku rasa....so, i juz take it like we're juz friend not bestfriend...nak admit aku ada bestfriend like ko pun...aku dah tak terasa....

and baru nie bila kau call balik...story bout your problem...the only thing i think at that time...why me?where is your bestfriend that you told before that you think that person can be your best friend ever?but since i still respect you as a friend i juz keep it shut....ko cakap ko bukan like before...yesss...aku terus terang...bila aku cakap pasal sikap kau semua...at last conversation...aku still remember that kau cakap aku memang kenal kau...sebab apa aku cakap semua memang kena dengan diri kau...aku tak ingat dah sebenarnya aku cakap apa...aku juz diam no komen....sebetulnya aku tak kenal pun siapa kau sekarang....sebab memang lain...dari kau yang dulu and now...it totally different....

mungkin kalau kau tahu pasal nie...maybe kau rasa sakit hatilah...aku bukan jenis suka speak out what i feel like kau...tapi think bout it again...siapa yang mulakan dulu....kau cakap aku nie menyusahkan but suddenly when you are in difficult situation...kau cari balik orang yang susahkan hidup kau nie....aku tak kisah kalau kau buat begitu tapi yang jadi aku tak boleh terima is confession kau yang dengan bangganya menyatakan aku nie bukan kawan baik kau untuk masa itu lah ini lah....aigggooooo.....ayat kau se lagi is....kenapalah aku tak ada di situ...memang aku tahu function aku nie cuma untuk jadi tempat kau luah masalah kan???dulu aku boleh terima lagi but once...you hurted my feeling...its done....kau call aku nak borak sesaja...aku hanya diam...sebab memang dah tak terasa kita nie kawan pun....minta maaf cakaplah...aku yang emo ke apa ke....but its the reality....

sungguh aku tak kisah sebenarnya dengar masalah member2...dah biasalah orang cari bila perlu je....but seramai2 yang buat begitu pun...tak ada sesengal kau yang dah label aku buat masalah ke kau, bebankan kau...alih2 cari aku balik....memang kelakarlah kan....aku rasa baiklah kau cari balik mana kawan yang kau agungkan sangat satu masa dulu tu...sampai aku yang kau dah kenal lagi lama nie....kau boleh campak gitu je kan....memang tak hurtlah kan feeling aku, kau buat begitu.....mungkin agak kejam but i really hope you never contact me again...it become a burdensome for me now....

my besties

assalammualaikummmm.....

juz suddenly feel really missing my besties ever....actually before this...i had a few of best friends but in the end...it end up with the same friends...it show right who is the truly best friends....ehehe....even before this...i had a friends that i think we quite closed, sharing problems, memories together...but in the end...that person choose a n

ew friend as the best friend...and that person confess it in front of me..and i was like...WAAAHHHH...really feel bad as i think we can be still be best friend after we get along for a time being but....i think it was not enough...even for years it doesnt mean we're really know each other, trust each other well....people get easily forget the old one and start to like the new one but in the end...the one that they asked for help, search to cry on...always the old one....but for me...once i was heartbroken...sorry...it so difficult for meto get on back...it was your decision....even it was like i still be easy with you actually...it is not...i treat you not like before but juz someone that i think i pity for....sorry to say

that but it was the reality....

for me all these three are my bestie forever...really hope our friendship will long lasting...firstly...my childhood friend since i was 4....we went to the same nursery for 3 years if i'm not mistaken...too bad there was no pic that time.....then, my parent and her father work at the same school...if i'm not mistaken since before we're born to this world.....wooowww...it was awesome right???hahaha....then, we separated for some current time until she transfer to my school...even we're not seem to close but actually we are...we like to play together...then, when we were in secondary school, we're separated as i was in other boarding school...so do she...we only met when holiday...and of course...we must met each holiday...we share thoughts, problems, feeling..hehe...and others....but seriously...she was the best listener....thanks to her that willing to hear all my stories from important stories to the very comman stories....hehee...even now we're in different university...it does'nt mean we did not contact each other....it was quite long time since we met....really miss her....owh i forgot...her name is zati...juz a nickname it was enough i think...hahaha....

the next one is my bestfriend in my secondary school....actually...for first...i was quite shy to be beside her since she was really pretty and quite popular among us...even among the teachers too....but, she was very open....i get along with her comfortably....when we're in form 1...our class teacher separate our sit in class according to our rank in test...and that time...fortunately i do well in my test...and i was placed with other 4 best students in our class...hahaha...when think about it again...seriously it was really a fortunate....from there, we start to get along well....her name is aisyah....actually she helped me a lot...especially in my studies and...she the one that actually turn back me from a naughty girl to become much better when i was in form 3...in form 2...even we still closed but i was quite naughty...like to break the rule and others...but then, in form 3...i think it is because i feel embarrassed with her since even i do something bad...she still treat me well....even i'm not totally change to be the good one...but it still have the change....so, in form 4 we're in same class again and it make us more closer than before....we share our thoughts, problems, feeling, happiness....even we really help each other in studies...she always remind me..."yana...study....study...don't just play around"...like a mother....hahahaha...but it was good...even sometime i'm not listening because i like to play more...hehe....

another my bestie is fadzrin....she was pretty same like aisyah...both of them were really popular back to our school time....even i remember...i get 3 hari raya cards from 3 boys that was from each form 3 classes to give to her....i was like...."yahhh....who want me to send a card..juz give me...i already sign contract to be a postwomen"....hahaha....three of us was quite closed...even i think fadzrin more closer to aisyah....but we still closed...then, we get into same foundation in uitm...each time i was with fadzrin...seriously we laugh a lot....it same happen to aisyah and zati....but i like the way fadzrin's speaking...it was unique...until sometime...i imitate her....hahaa....and now...we contact each other often...since we share our secrets, stories too...hehe...and one thing...i really like to watch her when she was in panic...hehehe...she can turn to be a funny girl at same time...hehe...and ah...i know her since we're in same class in secondary school for two years...but since because we live in hostel...no matter in same class or not...we get to met often...

and there is the last one...i don't have his picture..even we juz knew for 2 years...but he really be a good friend to me...and like others...we can share thoughts..even secrets...juz i think he was the open person even...he be a best listener....thank to him.....even once....as i was totally lost and down...he helped me with a very best motivation....it will be quite weird to write about him here...but still he is one of my besties right??so, still there is no wrong to talk about him....

friends....juz hope our friendship will be long lasting until ever...even until each of us had our own life....but still...hope our memories, our friendship will not die due to the time....no promise but just let this thought to be in our heart okay????hahaha...suddenly feel like want to cry....hahaha....love you all friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeahhhhh.....